I have been looking for ways to be inspired and make changes in 2013.  One of the things that came up as a way to tap into inspiration was working through the book "The Artist's Way" by Julia Cameron.  It's a book to help unleash creativity and since I have felt blah in that realm, I have been working the book with some friends.

 

Once of the suggestions of the book is to write "Morning Pages".  It says to get up in the morning, grab your coffee or tea and do a mind dump of writing for three pages.  No editing, no judgment, just let it pour out.  Even if you start writing "I have nothing to say", just write. 

 

When I first started doing them, I have to confess I thought they were silly.  I was babbling about things - not really taking any direction.  However, one day very early on, I was starting my second page and I wrote, "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired."

 

Where did that come from?  I thought to myself.  I kept writing and it became clear to me where it came from.  An old habit/pattern was rearing its ugly head and I finally was getting to the bottom of where it originated and how it got triggered again.

 

I realized the Morning Pages helped me tap into the space I didn't have time to analyze during my day-to-day life.  It was an opportunity for my mind to reveal things and say "Look at this!!  Examine that!!  See how that works!!"  I could review those things that I wanted to fix and even get to the root of why it was happening.  It's inspired me to get my health back on track and make changes that I've been afraid to work on for years.  I never thought it was fear but doing the Morning Pages pointed out what the reasons were and they actually have been a surprise to me.  

 

On a deeper level, the Morning Pages give me the chance to listen to myself.  While I think I'm pretty good at that, I also am good at putting on the distracting earphones to keep myself from touching the parts of me that are sensitive or hurting.  However, looking at those parts show me that they aren't that bad and I can dismantle them, replacing them with something new.  Once fear is confronted, it morphs into something new.  It usually also shows me I was making it into a bigger monster than it was.

 

Listening to what I really need has shown me that while I think I know what is best for me, if I don't go deeper, I won't get to the root of the problem and it will just keep coming up.

 

Morning Pages, Meditation, quiet time, whatever works for you - give yourself that time to build your relationship and listen to yourself.  You may be surprised at what you find.  No music, no distractions.  Just you with YOU.  

 

Let me know how listening to yourself goes for you.  Email me at mary@spiritualitygirl.com